Monday, January 18, 2010
LXXIV: Mr. Hung IV: Chan
I stepped outside the restaurant on my break. Stood looking out past the edge of town. The snow shielded all sound and I grew increasingly aware of my own breathing. It seemed too fast. Too loud. Too big.
I hate winter.
“Cold enough?” mocked Mr. Hung, sticking his head out the door.
I nodded. "Seriously Mr. Hung, why did you move to this climate?"
"The cold gets your blood flowing,” he said, and pulled his face back into the steamy kitchen.
I thought about my veins, criss-crossing under my skin, gusting like wind. I squeezed at my neck with a gloved hand. The pressure of blood grew. My head throbbed.
I clenched my teeth. The pulsing increased. I held my breath, pushing at the sensation of a body about to burst. After ten seconds my vision seemed to shift. I let go.
I breathed out, then in, and sat down on the front hood of a car in the parking lot. I focused my thoughts on the Trees.
Nothing. Silence. I hope no one saw me. I must've looked like a fool.
"Why do you do that?" asked Mr. Hung when I stepped back in. "You don't like the cold, yet you're always stepping outside on your breaks."
I thought about his question for a second. "I don't know, Chan."