Friday, February 5, 2010


Friday, January 8th, 2010.

"Yeah, what was that?" Susan asked when we talked about our New Year's Day encounter with the Trees for the first time. It was a week after the event and we were sitting at her kitchen table working our way through a bottle of red wine after supper.

"Did you really hear anything?" I asked. The words seemed to resist leaving my mouth. A little.

"I don't know. I think so," replied Susan. "I'm pretty sure, yeah. Didn't you?" I think she was feeling the resistance too. She looked at me as if to say, 'Are you really asking this?'

I could respond only to her words. "Well, not in a reliable way. But yeah, I heard -or sorta saw- something. And you were a part of it. A part of the thing I saw."

"It was like I was inside a feeling," she said. "A feeling and a sound." She looked excited and sympathetic, but still unsure. As if an expressed skepticism might blow down her paper walls.

The whole situation was getting to me. I put my head in my hands, overcome by a feeling as vague as the one Susan was describing. Something like a holding back, a blocking, a backwards-downwards motion. "This is too much." I looked at her and knew she understood.

She said, "maybe we shouldn't be talking about it."

"Okay." I rose from the chair. "Let's just go out there again. To the Trees."

"You should bring your video camera."

Nothing happened. Just us, cold, looking at some trees. Trees. All I shot was the snow.


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Anonymous said...

"And you were a part of it. A part of the thing I saw."

Jon Coutts said...

This chapter, for me, fills in all the others, the same way the video of snow falling on a black sky is a video of everything.

Anonymous said...

"As if an expressed skepticism might blow down her paper walls."

Matthew A. Wilkinson said...

It fills in all the others for you Jon? I wish it did for me. I'm as confused as ever.

Jon Coutts said...

Well, you know, in the way that a well-put question sums up all the other ones.

Jon Coutts said...

I'm not kidding either. I've come back to read each word of this chapter.

forrest said...

I would just like to say that I agree with JOn's statement. "The video of the snow is a video of everything"